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Monologue (RyoJin Multi-chap): Prologue
Title: Monologue: Prologue (Chapter 0/13)
Pairing: RyoJin
Rating: PG-13
Genre: romance, friendship, bit angst
Multi-chapter
Disclaimer: I don't own them or anything else JE-related. But the story is mine of course^^
Summary: It happens almost out of a sudden. 'Almost', because Jin should have seen the signs. But too pre-occupied with the problems in their relationship, it slipped his attention. And then Ryo is gone... leaving just a single note. Where he is, is a mystery, as is what drove him to leave. Desperate to save their relationship Jin decides to fight against unknown demons of their hearts. He is searching for the key to understanding Ryo's past... so that he might be able to open the locked door again.
Note: This story is built up like a little crime story, with Jin looking for reasons, answers...and Ryo. Every chapter starts and ends with a letter Jin is writing down into a notebook - like a diary.
Note2: Flashbacks and letters Jin has written are in [italic]
Dear Ryo-chan,
This is a love-letter.
I just wanted to make it clear once and for all: It is a love letter.
I know I suck with these things; that's why I’ll repeat it over and over again. Maybe I'm stupid, but I love you.
I'm sorry, if you don't want me to love you.
As I said, I’m stupid sometimes.
But I'm not stupid for loving you, right?
When I met you for the first time, you were so tiny and cute that I wanted to squish you.
I was cool back then, right?
I am still cool. But now we could be cool together.
Because you are cool too. You made me the coolest guy ever when we went out for the first time.
Do you still remember?
You have to. Because it was the best first date ever.
Really, if I could, I would rip the sky into pieces for you.
A life without you
is a life alone
without love
But it's also a life without fear
and pain
and fights
and struggles
Without me you are free
Am I also free without you?
Today I will just sing for you.
Will you hear me?
I hope you will. Because more than anything else I want to see your smiling face.
When you smile, you are my own little sun.
See, this is a love letter, because I love you.
Jin.
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Cold! Jin blinked in confusion when he woke up in the middle of the night, shivering like crazy. When he eyed the open window, he sighed. One of them had accidentally left it open. And he was so much more a summer-spring person, than a fall-winter person. But there was no help to it, he couldn’t change the seasons after all. And even if he had such a power, he should first change his own problems… his real problems.
Jin crawled out of his bed, closing the window silently, not wanting to wake Ryo up. But it was Ryo… and recently he had just a light sleep.
“Cold…” Ryo mumbled tiredly.
“Sorry.” Jin crawled back into the bed. “The window was open.” He wanted to wrap his arms around Ryo’s trembling body to warm him a bit, but something about Ryo was so cold…again. It made it impossible for Jin to approach him. He stroked over the younger one’s arms soothingly, not sure how he should react to this Ryo, who seemed to be so far away from him though he was lying right next to him. They had been so close once. What had happened? In a blink of a moment, it had changed. They were like two shadows next to each other.
Jin wanted to understand it. He wanted to ask Ryo if they were okay, if something was bothering him and if he was at fault. But he couldn’t. He feared the answers. He didn’t want to loose Ryo, he didn’t want to give up that easily.
Little did Jin know at this moment that tomorrow, in a blink of an eye, something would change completely again. And that the right way to understand it would be hidden deep underneath their surface. The key to understanding and trust.
24 hours later:
“Ryo!?” Jin held the letter in his hands, his fingers clinging to it as if they could change the words written on the paper. Jin didn’t even realize how his body was trembling, his tensed fingers almost hurting. He rushed through the apartment a second time, but he didn’t find him. Ryo was not here. His eyes were shifting back to the sheet of paper, to the words scribbled down there in Ryo’s clumsy hand-writing. Jin read it over and over again, but still he couldn’t grasp it.
How could this happen!? Where was his beloved stupid little shrimp? Why did it have to come that far?
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Dear Ryo,
at this day…
Did you wonder how I would feel when I read the letter you wrote to me?
If I would feel hurt? Rejected? Angry?
Did you think I would give up that easily?
I have news for you, silly:
I WON’T GIVE UP!!
A/N: New story! ^_^ I just missed my OTP so much... I had to write them ^^
For a more detailed explanation to this story click here. I posted it in an extra post^^
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Note: Hey dear friends and readers! Thanks so much for all your support!! So, I wanted to tell you that my Request Post is open. If you feel like requesting a specific pairing or situation you can do so HERE
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I really hope Jin finds his beloved Shrimp, because they just have to be together. <3
Thanks for sharing this prologue ^^ <3 *bighugs*
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Thanks so much,dear!
I hope you will like this story <3
Yes, something is wrong... But what exactly it's about, is still to be revealed XD
You are right, Ryo isn't cold normally, but something made him close up.
Thanks so much for reading! *huggles*
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"Really, if I could, I would rip the sky into pieces for you." That is one of the best lines ever. I just love it so much. It's sad that he can write something like that, so perfect in expressing his emotions, yet he could not ask Ryo what is wrong. He could not face the Ryo in front of him.
i love the end, because i am glad the Jin isn't giving up on Ryo. And I really want to know what Ryo wrote. I mean I can imagine, but I want to know.
i am so excited about thirteen chapters of this wonderful fic. Thank you for sharing this. I listened to the song and read the lyrics too. He is such a good songwriter--am I surprised not really. He's so great at so many things.
Hugs, hearts, and apple pie. :D :D :D
PS. I have to work tomorrow, we travel home in a few hours.
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Thanks so much for encouraging me <3
It's strange, right?
That Jin can express his feelings perfectly when he writes a letter, but the moment he should actually approach Ryo and ask him directly what's wrong, he can't.
These two are my favourite pairing, I guess. Though TakkiRyo, RyoUchi and KameRyo are close up ^^ Especially TakkiRyo. But somehow RyoJin is special for me ^^
I'm so happy you like the structure of this! I was a bit worried if it would be too confusing. But I'm glad that it works ^_^
Thanks so much for your amazing comment!!!!!!!!! *huggles*
And I hope you came home well! *huuuuuuuuuuuugs*
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I love Ryo songs...I love the way he put all his soul into it ^_^ That is cool side from him I love ^_~
Nice fic n thank U 4 sharing =)
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Yes, Jin is more serious here. He really wants Ryo back.
Yes, I love Ryo's songs too. He really makes something special out of them <3
Thanks so much for reading! *huggles*
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How have you been? <3
*g* Jin can be such a dork, right? But his feelings are true and honest.
He won't give up that easily ^^
Thanks so much for reading, dear! I'm so happy you are following this!! <3
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Just a little tired/stressed. How about you?!~ :D <3
lol <3 yup, and that's why Ryo-chan loves him!~ :D
He better not or I'll kick him!~ lol <3
hehehe!~ Thanks for writing Akanishikido!~ :D *hugs*
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And I caught a cold ><
Yes, of course, dorky Jin just has to be loved <3
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It's so cold these days. I hope you relax and get better!~ <3 Drink warm soup or eat porridge!~ <3 *hugs*
yup!~ lol <3
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But I'm feeling better! Thanks so much!!!! *huggles*
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yays!!~ :D That's good!~ <3 *hugs* <3
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*laughs* Really!? So you are also craving for RyoJin moments? <3 YAY!! ^____________^
THANKS SO MUCH FOR READING! *huggles*
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The letters are a little heart breaking, I find them sad but also sweet.
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I will reveal everything step by step ^_^
I'm so glad you liked the love letters <3
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You're welcome <3
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I can't wait to find out how this becomes a crime story!!
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OTP is the short form "One True Pairing". *laughs* Actually I had to look it up too - I didn't know it's exact phrase^^ But you use it for your favourite pairing.
Ah, it's not a crime story of course, but the structure will be similar. Because Jin is searching for Ryo. <3
Thanks so much for reading, dear! *huggles*
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hmmm... not a crime but similar... ok i shall wait to find out how Jin goes about finding Ryo and the reason for Ryo's sudden disappearance...
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Love it! Please update soon^^
Tones of kisses!
*hugs*
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I'm so glad you like this already <3
I'll update soon! :D
Thanks so much for reading!! *HUGS*
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Where did Ryo go?? I can't wait.. =D,
Thanks so much <33!
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Yes, Ryo is gone... just where to?
Thanks so much for reading!! *huggles*
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OMG. You got me. You just made me regret ceasing from reading your works. God. This is amazing. The style is different and it makes me want more. I love dark pasts, crime stuff and all the mystery. I love the title! Monologue! Everything is perfect! I know I'm gonna love this one so much!
Anyway, I like it that the narration focuses on someone's feelings, and that is Jin's. Somehow, the emotion gets directed as if the reader is Jin. I think reading it from his point of view as he find clues about Ryo's past and struggle will really be effective. I am curious right now! Can't wait for the next update! Thanks for this! I really adore the title!
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I'm so happy you are interested in this!!
The concept will be like a crime story because we'll just encounter everything out of Jin's eyes.
Thanks so much for your lovely comment!! I'm so glad you like this!!
And I hope you will also like the rest of it <3
*HUGSTIGHT*
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I'm so glad you liked it!! <3
By the way, I'll try and write something for your comm. It sounds like fun ^__^
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