thanks for the spot, hon! i'm really glad you updated this :) i was so desperate to read the next chapter, right?

it's kinda crushing to realize that all the while, ryo had been so closed and was always holding things back. i'm sure jin's heart aches everytime he realize these things. when there's something wrong with the flash back, my heart really aches even though i clearly don't know what is happening to ryo.

i'm guessing ryo's personality is not a result of a one time incident but an accumulative set of experiences or bits of his life. i don't know but i'm pretty sure the triggers were too deep that he had to become like that. he seems quite unsure about the people around him, and he feels so little that's why he's insecure.

so now there's uchi. i am so happy to read about his suspension. i think ryo did an amazing job as a friend to uchi there in your story and in real life, as well. he's right, we get to know who our real friends are in the dark times of our lives. i'm happy that jin got a clue here. although i honestly don't have any idea about the next person he's going to talk t because it seems to me that only tegoshi and uchi are the ones ryo loves spoiling. but of course, i might have missed on the others so yeah. i'm gonna wait for that.

jun and jin's conversation made a lot of sense to me. actually, i find ryo's shyness, too. not here but in real life. it's too cute to ignore but the complexity of his personality is really amazing. well sometimes, he fakes it on girls but ryo really is shy and we can figure out when he's faking it and when he's really shy. but going back to the story, his shyness is quite alarming since he's having problems here. i'm just not too sure about the reason.

okay, since ryo seems so broken ever since (by the way his stories and others perception about them is being brought up here) i believe that the reason is really traumatic and something big. i can't wait to find out about it. i know it's not gonna be easy for him and for jin and for me, who's going to heartbreakingly read it but i'm really intrigued. what made ryo feel so crushed that he became this type of person?

oh, i was wondering too if ryo even had a plan of hurting himself? since you know, i think he sees himself in uchi that's why he's there for him and it was mentioned that he's afraid that uchi might hurt himself or so. if that is so, i should be panicking by now. jin has to find him real soon!

i don't know if i'm taking this story real slow. i mean i love it to death that it breaks my heart everytime. i'm hurting for ryo because he's all alone and crushed at the moment but jin's really pulling my heartstrings. he really loves ryo so much.

i just want them to see each other again. i don't care how emotional it will be for the two of them but these two have to be together again! they have to fight together and bring ryo back to life!

thanks for this update dear. i really hope that you update soon :)