hello dear! yes, i'm fast like this! just in time. i feel like messaging you was the only fruitful thing i've done today <3 thanks for the spot, by the way. :)
okay, so there. i've missed monologue so much so yeah. sad mode has been turned on again. i'm starting to pity jin here. although it has just been 5 chapters (cause i don't know how many days have gone by already) i could feel him hurting and longing for ryo so much. yes, you mentioned about the sex here but i knew there was something more about it. ryo himself. jin was starting to realize that almost each of ryo's actions come along with hesitation. and that's sad. everytime i read a line proving how closed he is, my heart aches literally (i'm really serious here). because, how can a person be so closed so much? i think it hurts so much, to get yourself deprived of being open to others, even to the ones you love. it just hurts to be ryo, i think. and it's so sad that he had to keep them all himself when there was at least jin who'd be more than willing to make him feel better. it's hard to gain trust, yes. but... yeah, i don't know already! i have to know what's on ryo's mind! :(
i think this is the second time i have read ryo not having good relationship with his brothers? especially the one yoko going to his house and blah. got me thinking if this happened in real life, though? i know the fractured arm was really because of his 2nd brother but i'm not sure if yoko really did go to ryo's parents. as far as i know now, though, ryo's having a good relationship with all of his siblings now. :)
alright, so based from yoko and hina's thoughts, i feel like ryo's family issues have affected him so much (well that's if having such brothers was the worst, alright) and yes, it could be dangerous. i feel so sad that ryo had to experience such things. kids being bullied and not being loved enough by their parents is a major heartache for me.
“Because I think it’s dangerous. A kid should grow up in a loving environment without fearing to go home. What if a child adapts such a thing and keeps it in his memory. What if it will make it impossible for it to trust people? What if it searches such a relationship later on? Such patterns sadly get adapted…”
this is something. i'm finding clues as to why ryo left but i won't tell. if i'm right. i'll feel bad. :/
so this senpai, is it takki? he and ryo had history? how? hmm. i'm not actually sure if it's really takki so it's just a guess. i hope this person gets to help out jin, though because somehow, i'm feeling that he needs to find the fragile one soon. for me, the things he is learning about ryo are getting worse and serious. it might be too late. i just don't know already! all i know right now is jin is madly in love with ryo and ryo feels the same but something really grave is holding him back. AND IT HURTS LIKE HELL. Ryo, I'm worrying for your heart. :(((
Thanks for this wonderful chapter, dear! I really loved it, as always! thanks so muccccccccccccchh <3 <3 <3
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okay, so there. i've missed monologue so much so yeah. sad mode has been turned on again. i'm starting to pity jin here. although it has just been 5 chapters (cause i don't know how many days have gone by already) i could feel him hurting and longing for ryo so much. yes, you mentioned about the sex here but i knew there was something more about it. ryo himself. jin was starting to realize that almost each of ryo's actions come along with hesitation. and that's sad. everytime i read a line proving how closed he is, my heart aches literally (i'm really serious here). because, how can a person be so closed so much? i think it hurts so much, to get yourself deprived of being open to others, even to the ones you love. it just hurts to be ryo, i think. and it's so sad that he had to keep them all himself when there was at least jin who'd be more than willing to make him feel better. it's hard to gain trust, yes. but... yeah, i don't know already! i have to know what's on ryo's mind! :(
i think this is the second time i have read ryo not having good relationship with his brothers? especially the one yoko going to his house and blah. got me thinking if this happened in real life, though? i know the fractured arm was really because of his 2nd brother but i'm not sure if yoko really did go to ryo's parents. as far as i know now, though, ryo's having a good relationship with all of his siblings now. :)
alright, so based from yoko and hina's thoughts, i feel like ryo's family issues have affected him so much (well that's if having such brothers was the worst, alright) and yes, it could be dangerous. i feel so sad that ryo had to experience such things. kids being bullied and not being loved enough by their parents is a major heartache for me.
“Because I think it’s dangerous. A kid should grow up in a loving environment without fearing to go home. What if a child adapts such a thing and keeps it in his memory. What if it will make it impossible for it to trust people? What if it searches such a relationship later on? Such patterns sadly get adapted…”
this is something. i'm finding clues as to why ryo left but i won't tell. if i'm right. i'll feel bad. :/
so this senpai, is it takki? he and ryo had history? how? hmm. i'm not actually sure if it's really takki so it's just a guess. i hope this person gets to help out jin, though because somehow, i'm feeling that he needs to find the fragile one soon. for me, the things he is learning about ryo are getting worse and serious. it might be too late. i just don't know already! all i know right now is jin is madly in love with ryo and ryo feels the same but something really grave is holding him back. AND IT HURTS LIKE HELL. Ryo, I'm worrying for your heart. :(((
Thanks for this wonderful chapter, dear! I really loved it, as always! thanks so muccccccccccccchh <3 <3 <3